Good evening good people,
I've been gone for quite awhile. My apologies, I've been busy dealing with what I know as life. Now down to business.
I have been attempting to rebuild my faith after all that has been going on with me. Where I left off, I was angry, enraged and in a place spiritually that I did not need nor want to be. So I had a long talk with God. I had a lot of why me's and what ifs in my spirit, but I was told to thank Him for all (good, bad and ugly) and everything that happens. I started to turn my spirit around and think positive. Now let me tell you, it ain't easy. I still was silent toward my aunt, didn't have words for her. I still don't but it won't kill either of us to share a simple "good morning" or "good evening". Even though she does some of the stupidest shit I have ever heard of (like pouring used frying grease down the toilet), I still ask God for patience and positivity. I should work on the understanding part because I have yet to get why you are so angry with the people who saved your ass from being homeless in California (I think its jealousy but oh well).
Moving right along before I get angry again, I have been helping my boyfriend deal with the death of his grandmother. I know the feeling, having lost my granny in 2006. I put on my "100 in a Year" list that I want to "grow my hair to shoulder length", I wanna cut it off. Not all the way off but really short. I got a car (YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!) and every since then, I have not had to take my aunt to work. Thank God for that. Also, for my goals that don't get accomplished this year, they will rollover to the next year.
So, I am still actively searching for employment, still getting up the nerve to learn to drive on the interstate, still trying to get my water intake up, still trying to lose weight (not working) and still trying to figure out how to get the hell outta my mom's house. I love my family, but I have had enough of living with them. I still am in school trying to maintain my 4.0 GPA, (ha, I got that part straight!) and I am quite excited to be in my bestie's wedding in June. I am still reading my Bible, still trying to stop cursing so much and occupy my mind with things to do because as they say "An idle mind is the Devil's playground".
So I am quite content right now, but still working on what needs to be worked on. Before I end this, I wanna send a shoutout to my besties MeMe and Brittany. They are the ones that have kept me going through it all and I love them to pieces. Shoutout to my fam, even though they get on my last nerves, I love em. Shoutout to my loving, sweet, sexy, man Curtis (I gonna marry him yall lol). Good night all, headed out for a bit. Be safe and sweet.
Blessings,
TaraBug
