Good Afternoon all,
I've been sick for the last two weeks with a head cold and then tonsillitis (bummer!) so I am getting my system back on track. I have been seriously neglecting my water (I been drinking coffee, tea, and the packet drink mixes) so I must get back on that ASAP. Emergen-C, Multivitamins, sleep (more like medicinal coma), DayQuil, NyQuil, ibuprofen were the reason I feel good today; I'm like 90% today.
In those days, I reflected on what I would like to accomplish this year. I thought about the mess, mistreatment, and drama I have been putting up with, and I am pretty much done with it. My cousin told me something, that all my besties have been telling me, "You need to start standing up for yourself. Your parents don't run everything. Hell If you wanna do something, do it." For some reason, it clicked. He is right (they all were right!) and I have just been settling for the bullshit without having anything to say about it. I have been bullied and I am very embarrassed to say the least, that I allowed this to happen to me. I am 25 and I don't have anything, with the exception of my degrees, to show for it. My problem is that I care too much. I no longer care about the well-being of anyone who didn't give my feelings any thought. I have given blood, sweat and tears (and MONEY) to these people and for what, absolutely nothing. So my next move is to cleanse my spirit of the fear of guilt if I don't do something for them. I pretty much gotta get some "fxck it" in my system in order to be able to stand on my own two feet!
On this journey, I know I will have the help and encouragement of my baby mamas, my lovely boyfriend, and other vessels of encouragement. Also, prayer is leading all this warrior-ship I embark upon. Keep me in your prayers and have a great and safe day in this cold weather.
Blessings,
TaraBug, Reinvented
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