Happy Friday All,
I am feeling better and trying to figure out what to do for my 25th birthday, which is in 2 days (January 6; Sunday!!) However, for right now, I'm in a reflection period of the year, to remember how I got to the stage I'm in now. Stroll with me, will you? Let's Go!
The highlight of my year was in April 2012, when I graduated CUM LAUDE from my beloved HBCU, Jackson State University! Yes, I earned my Bachelor's of Science degree in Mass Communications. The months leading up to this moment were stressful; exit interviews, finals, papers, projects, work-study (AAAH!) and family issues.
The summer afterwards was hell, pure hell. I was constantly arguing with my parents about me finding a job. It wasn't like I wasn't trying, but they were not buying that. The constant job applications, emails saying they found a better suited candidate for the job and all that were the reason for my depression this summer. On Top of all of that, my aunt from California moved home and I was then deported from my room (against my will of course). Let's just say she values the life of animals more than the life of the people who are responsible for her comfortable lifestyle after moving home or otherwise being homeless. I do not like nasty people (she is), I do not care for snobby people (she is) and I do not take kindly to people talking stupid to my family (yeah, you get it). So there I was, sharing a room with my brother, getting yelled at for any and everything, and literally losing my mind. School started back in the Fall and I have never been that damn happy about going to class. All I could do was cry, cry, cry, stay to myself or get away as much as possible, and PRAY, PRAY, PRAY and did I mention how much I prayed!?
My besties moved away, which are two of my most cherished people God has ever sent to me. My bestie MeMe, got married and moved to Ridgeland. My bestie Britt, got engaged and moved to Hattiesburg. Now I know you're like "Girl you can go see them when you want to." No. They both work full-time and I was without a job or a car so you could imagine the violent thoughts I was having. To make matters worse, my boyfriend lives on the other side of the city and just like me, he was experiencing some hardship in life too. So you see, I am a master of "smile so nobody will think to ask questions".
However, I prayed about this so God didn't come on my time, but he came. I somehow found the will to hold my head up and let this shit go. I still don't have a job, however, if the Lord says the same, I will be getting a car this semester and I will be able to move about as I seek fit, because trust me, sharing a car with someone (who happens to be your mother) is like puling hair from your legs one at a time. And, If the Lord blesses me again, I will be living in my own space in the Fall Semester of 2013. So that's a snippet of the Hell of 2012. Thanks for walking with me, feel free to fix you another drink because I already got me one.
Blessings,
TaraBug
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